Healing Journey ~ Nothing Wasted

I was able to pray with my kids, regarding Timothy’s passing, and help them give their sorrows and grief to God, but I needed help for myself. I went to a prayer ministry meeting, and got paired up with a prayer partner. I explained that while cleaning out Timothy’s house, whenever I would find a certificate or license, I would feel very depressed. Tim had so much talent and potential, it seemed like such a waste for him to “leave” at such a young age. He worked so hard to get where he was, and now it was gone. All of those gifts from God were seemingly for naught.

The prayer minister led me in a prayer to give the sadness of Timothy’s wasted talents to Jesus, and trade it for His peace. Then he prayed and asked God what I needed to know about those thoughts.

I saw in my mind’s eye a time when Timothy was maybe 8 years old. He had come up to me and sweetly hugged me around the neck, and we said, “I love you” to each other. I realized in that moment that even if he had only lived 8 years, and had never achieved anything, never learned any foreign languages, never earned any certificates or licenses, his life would not have been a waste-- because he was mine! He was a blessing to me! The Lord showed me that I had been privileged to enjoy him as my child for 20 more years from that 8-year-old moment! His very existence was a blessing, and I had been invited to share in it!

Our preacher reminded me that Jesus walked this earth in human form for only 33 years. His followers did not want him to go. He had so much potential! He could do anything and knew every language on the planet! But it was simply His time to go. And He told them it would be better for him to go than to stay!

Better!

None of Jesus’ earthly experiences were wasted. It was all integrated into the fabric of who He was and how He was able to represent all mankind on the cross when He died for our sins. It was all necessary and useful for God’s purposes.

Lord, thank your for reminding me that nothing we experience is ever wasted. Timothy's life accomplished so many wonderful things, and I know you will "work them all together for good” (even if I don’t see how). Help me to trust you more. I am so human! Hold me up. Carry me through the rest of my life. Bring about your purposes in all the pain. In Jesus' name, Amen.

“We know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28